Ever get the urge to just leave , walk out , sail away far far away from everything , escape may be the word i am looking for , that is what I feel like today , suffocated is what I felt like last week with the sensation tightening more each day and today I realized I am the scapegoat regardless of logic regardless of actions I am the scapegoat no matter how I may try to fight it or combat it nothing changes nothing will change it is literally like trying to fill a bucket that holes in it , except maybe i am the bucket with gun shot holes perhaps I should stop trying to fill the bucket to help every one else and focus on filling my holes instead?
ok that sounded wrong! but you know what I mean , so I want to take my Darls and sail away , I want to say I'm done to soooo many people grab some basics supplies probably a survival at sea guide and perhaps a fishing for dummies book, and just sail away maybe find an island away from modern day idiots and just battle my demons , build myself up maybe even build a tree house that would be soooo awesome! although that may mean i would not want to go back to mainland .
Do you ever want to just sail away in to the unknown because it seems probably friendlier than the daily crap you have to endure?
This too shall pass.