The rest of the days

Day 24. Your favorite movie & what it’s about.
I don't have a favorite movie in all honesty I like too many , I like all Queen Latifah movies , I generally likes movies that leave you inspired like patch adams I also like most sandra bullock movies , funny movies meaningful movies , superhero magical movies! yeah i don't have a favorite :p 

Day 25. Someone who fascinates you and why.
I want to talk about one particular person but I won't because frankly I am mad at her which makes this a difficult question.

Marie is a friend very dear to my heart, she never ceases to fascinate me every single time we talk , she is the friendliest most warm hearted kindest person that i ever know with abnormal strength in fact i would go as far as thinking of her as a mighty woman  , she is beautiful in every single way that you can possibly think of , very brave very passionate about every thing she believes in and everyone she loves , somebody i admire and look up to and could not imagine my life without .

Day 26. What kind of person attracts you.


In Theory  I believe that I am attracted to smart women who are kind, witty, funny,strong of heart and strong of mind, women that stand their own ground and don't take shit from anyone , women that can tell the difference between a male and a man , old fashioned yet modern if that makes sense , someone that doesn't mind change or challenge , but most importantly someone that is just normal and down to earth that although hopefully honest and loyalm has flawsm that may talk too much and whine and be at times un realistic , that likes to potentially come up with crazy ideas or even new colours , a real woman a human being , that is the person i am attracted too. 

Day 27. A problem that you have had
Humans.

ok fine fine not all humans , just the majority of the ones i know that i would not consider real humans.

Day 28. Something that you miss.
My Uncle .

29. Goals for the next 30 days.
Write my dissertation ! which is why I am finishing this challenge today so I can focus on writing it this week and presenting my supervisor with a draft.

Day 30. Your highs and lows of this month!

Do NOT!!! get me started.

Day 23

Day 23. Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous whom you find attractive.
Unfortunately I will not be providing this because I do not find men attractive however I shall post 5 pictures of BEAUTIFUL women , now I can't post the women I would want to post because they are not famous so let us go for some famous lassies shall we ? oh and they are not in order!!

ok fine i have to add 2 more!!!

20&21&22

Day 20. How important you think education is.

Education is literally a weapon for more than one reason, it can be used for fighting ignorance , to get a semi decent job and you kinda have to read so you can hit people with books, ok ok no seriously especially with the way the world is now an education gives you an advantage or a push for you to be chosen for a job so to speak it also gives you another opportunity to network and meet new people but more importantly it opens many doors!
of course there is no need for me to go in to how important it is especially for women outside of first world countries , it becomes a life line that can free you and ensure a future , there isn't much more i would want to add to be honest education is important i think of it as vital and everyone should have the opportunity to have a proper education at any stage of life.

Day 21. One of your favorite shows.
 Well this is a tough one , it is a toss between Greys anatomy and Once upon a time, Once upon a time is going to have to win though purely because of the magical aspects and my ongoing imaginary relationship with Regina !

Cmon it has beautiful women , a magnificent story line or well lines ! and it is DISNEY! based or fairy tale based whichever you prefer they are one in the same to me , so what is not to love ? the effects are pretty awesome too .



Day 22. How have your changed in the past 2 years.
I would say refer to the previous post about the highs and lows of the last year, I have also learnt to be cold and more self reliant , I have learnt that sometimes you have to put yourself first although I am still bad at that , I have learnt that there are always people that will love you for who you are and you should not let them go , the little things are all that matter the little things are what make the big picture not the grand gestures, of course there is the usual women are confusing as fuck! how am i supposed to know what you want if you don't know what you want even after saying what you want which is not really what you want! and yeah just refer to the previous post :p
I have also learnt though that I am good at handling bad situations although my patience is something i am currently disliking.

Days 18 & 19

                                                         
                                                          Day 18. Your beliefs.

There is too much that I believe in so elaborating on all of it will render me responsible for providing you with laser eye surgery or glasses and a trip to the doctor at the very least , so how about I just mention some of the things that I believe in ?
I believe in Santa and no that is not absurd ! I believe in magic it dwells within all of us  the only difference is that we do not all have the capability of recognizing it in ourselves in others or even seeing the wonder in our surroundings .  I believe that beauty is everywhere , literally everywhere if you look closely enough and Joy is always lurking at the next corner , it likes to play hide and seek but it does exist !.
I believe that the majority of the human race are vile horrible creatures and that is because they do not use or even acknowledge their hearts any more . I believe that you can be anything and anybody that you wish to be, that there are no limitations whatsoever and the only thing that stands on your way easy, or the obstacle is that you allow to be put in your way.
I believe that every person is Superman, that we do not really know how strong we are but there is magnificent strength that resides within us.
I believe in respect I believe in order and loyalty, in humanity in chocolate in the potential that goodness still exist, i also believe that kindness solves many problems, that crying is not weakness that you do not need to be strong to be brave, and that a warm voice or  a smile (preferably combined) can make the worst day better .

is this enough as far as beliefs go ?

Day 19. Disrespecting your parents.

are we talking they asked you to butcher your cow that you raised since it was a calf and you refuse too , or they disapprove of  you living with your partner prior to marriage disrespectful or God forbid you are attracted to someone of the same sex disrespectful ( do you feel the sarcasm there ? )

or just plane old go to your room ! NO! I WONT YOU CANT MAKE ME !!! disrespectful?

Unless it is a good reason and it is unavoidable although you still have to be kind , you are never to be purposefully disrespectful to your parents , and let me clarify by parents i do not simply mean blood related , anybody that has played a parent figure in your life counts , you are never ever ever to be disrespectful for no reason and whenever you lose your temper and find yourself being disrespectful you show up with flowers you apologies and ask for forgiveness . If you were not fortunate and you were landed with bad parents you still try your best to be respectful consider it one of your tests in life , believe it or not it turns you in to a better person I mean look at me I didn't turn out so bad now did i ? ( the only valid answers here are yes you are alright , you are bloody awesome , you are so fantastic! etc..)

I will not lecture so bottom line is do NOT disrespect your parents , it is wrong on so many levels , and it will haunt you sooner or later.

Day 17

                                    Day 17. Your highs and lows of this past year.


Now by this last year are we talking about the last 50 odd days in 2013 or are we talking about since February 2012? 
I suppose the later includes the first sooo here goes !

It was a Fucking horrible year ! (that started June 2011 and continues ) , so Since February  I was mostly on a diet that was horrible and the worst part is that despite sticking to every word of it I didn't lose any weight but nay bother nay bother , we all know my ordeal with therapy at the time that continued till June physically and till December via Skype it did not work it caused damage that was not previously there and has also caused much consequences because although I tried to get over my pride to see if maybe I was wrong the therapist could not do the same and as it turns out I am right ! ( there is always a possibility that  am wrong of course ) but I am still right ! and I am fine I erm just do not have a healthy psychological or emotional environment at the moment and considering the history of this environment I am quite proud that I am not a psychopathic serial killer crazy person among many other things sooo ! yes horribleness , to add to the horribleness the one uncle that I really really liked even if he wasn't the best of characters he always treated me with respect and supported me no matter what , he always had something nice to say , yes he was a lazy selfish coward i will not lie , but with me he was nice and he taught me how to be a gentleman I could do with learning from his sense of style too to be honest , well he passed away and that broke my heart especially that he was just starting to get better and then I had a dream where in reality he was saying goodbye to me , ok i can't talk about this I am tearing up and we can't have that !!!

So the third day of his funeral our great aunt died and the third day of her funeral some other relative died too but it wasn't somebody i knew and the funeral was not held at our house , oh 2 weeks before my uncle died my aunt died , i use the term aunt very loosely because we were roughly the same age she lost the battle to cancer and she was also one of the sweetest purest people i ever knew and the only dentist i liked . Did I mention all this happened during Ramadan in the middle east with temperatures exceeding 40 degrees mostly and electricity gone 80% of the day ? which meant no air conditioning no fans and no water because water pumps required electricity in a house of very emotional people that did not always get a long ? in fact for the first week there was roughly 30-50 people there that stayed and hundreds in total that kept showing up . So emotional horrible summer but see I met my late aunt's mother and sisters and they are just amazing people I visited them regularly and checked if they needed anything because it felt right and they treated me as if i was one of their own in all honesty which was sweet especially since I was VERY out of place in that country .

So yes it was a loooong year of heart ache that started roughly just before February ( and continues ) and then more heart ache around June/July , I am unsure if getting used to falling asleep to the sound of bullets is considered good or bad but that happened too , there was much gore and blood and tanks and guns .I believe that there was someone something watching over me that entire year because I was inches away from death at every corner I went.


And my car got stolen which was heart breaking also i loved that car !! we got along so well , we had so much history we shared blood and oil .

Sooooo lets get to some highlights because I don't want to remember any more of the bad stuff , Jack & Sophie ! they gave me hope and they helped me , I loved those pups and once I settle down I want a rescue dog or to at least volunteer with them , I went home it was 15 months over due although my friends had moved I met some new friends , and got in touch with the ones still here apparently stories were told as i was absent because when i walked in to my volunteering place my boss's new assistant whom i did not know gave me the :-O OMG its you ! face ok she actually said it too and my boss pretty much cried whilst squeezing me ( i must be special !) that was soooo heart warming beyond belief after all that time being brainwashed in to thinking you are a freak and you are mentally ill (which i fought all the way ) to have someone just be glad that you are there and you are you and be grateful for that, was mind blowing , no to mention all my friends that were so supportive and kept me going throughout this time period i would be in a loony bin in Egypt somewhere if it weren't for you and i love you all dearly !
I met new people since I got home who actually worry and have threatened to beat me with a stick if i said i was ok when i wasn't which is lets say new ? they are as surprised as i am , actually they are more in shock about how easy i am to be around and how it feels like we have known each other forever which is also new but nice to know that somebody knows everything and just accepts you for who you are without making you feel like a monster , yes i am blessed with many friends like that but its always good to have friends near you too that can apparently beat you with a stick ..... 
I managed to get a job in a lab which is awesome ! no no not because I have easy access to chemicals my boss is awesome and I can make god knows what noooooo of course not ! ( insert pretendy evil laugh )because when I apply for my next job soon hopefully I can say yes  I do have lab experience , although finding a graduate job is difficult I am still going to try who knows it might mean moving to the states or Canada.
I joined an Archery society and discovered that I want a bow and plenty of arrows at my disposal ! I also joined a humanist society and was made part of its well actually come to think of i don't know what they made me but the union will communicate with me anyway ! and I offered to help with a love music hate homophobia event , although the captain of the LGBT society is a complete dick and I intend to fight with him at my earliest convenience as I dislike being lied to or my friends being lied to or anyone being lied to, really just to make himself look good that is a big no no ! and  I will not stand for it , you either lead properly or stand down let somebody else do the job .




Lets see what else happened , oh it snowed!!! how I loved the snow and! although I am against Easter merchandise being in stores since January , I can't help but think it is an opportunity for me to catch up on last Easter that I missed ! so I have been indulging in Easter eggs and bunnies , I think watching Les Miserables has to count as a highlight too as is the fact that i am learning how to sing the songs and my voice is not all that horrible which is a plus . 
I discovered that I am a kind man not just a generous one but also a kind man which well I did not think I was.

So Ladies and Ladies and Gent( I doubt there are many gents that read this  which would mean i should target my female audience and take advantage of that ! )

I am not going to make this blog any longer than it already is as to not bore you are anything , although we know the truth is I can't think of anything else , wait i can ! the A-Z challenge that was AWESOME! and its back again this year ! AND!!! Lady G has an awesome D day post I am very very very very patiently waiting for !

ok now i will actually shut up :p

Because you have been so patient and read all this you can make this with me .

Day 14. Your earliest memory.
This is a tough one especially since I actually have developed memory issues within the last year ( yes we know why that happened!) I remember the ice cream van oh i remember i had a toy bull that completely disappeared, oh and that i liked running around in my underwear and shouting like tarzan , does that count as my earliest memory ? 

Day 15. Your favorite blogs
hmmm there are so many I like lou lou's blog of course that goes without saying, one of my favorite blogs has to be Ali Brosh's which can be found at http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.co.uk/ just love it and pretty much all the blogs she has advertised ,  naturally the lovely Marnie's blog http://whatsupwithred.blogspot.co.uk/ is just Bloody amazing ! this is a pretty awesome blog too http://judy-minutebyminutedaybyday.blogspot.co.uk/ actually if i keep going i am going to just post all the blogs on my favorites !!

Day 16. Your views on mainstream music.
is it disney? is it jazzy? is it classicy? can i sing it ? if its not then my view is that I do not like it !


But I do generally love music especially acoustic , or maybe i just love listening to certain people's voices? it might be a bit of both because i just adore a good pair of pipes! Lady G has a decent set on her , lizzy does too when she doesn't burst in to giggles, there is a lass called lona who literally has the voice of an angel , there are many more i know and to me they are my mainstream music :)


And ! I was discussing earlier with somebody I heard a song that was a blast from the past " The Ugly Bug Ball" listen to it !!!

Days 12 & 13

Day 12. Your dream college.
Believe it or not I actually did not have a dream college never had , I wanted to be a Dr a surgeon to be exact but that dream did not occur , I like my current University its nice small friendly , and to be honest once i can afford graduate/post graduate studies I will not be fussed where it is as long as it has a good forensic/genetics/anthropology department I will be content, I would even consider a place in the states as long as its nice and not too big .

But if we are talking dreams well My dream college is the one that is going to offer me a scholarship to do some research :D


Day 13. Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

I want to move somewhere not in the middle of no where but also not right in the middle of the city perhaps a suburb near a city with a big yard , good Lord I am aging!

I believe I have developed a headache due to mentally banging my head continously for a prolonged period of time on an imaginary wall ..


True story

tis a music day!!

Day 11. Put your iPod on shuffle and write down the 10 songs that pop up

1. kiss the girls - samual e wright
2. the awakening - james morrison 
3. how to save a life - boyce avenue version
4. hello again - amos lee 
5. bad influence-p!nk
6. age of not believing - angela lansbury
7. frank d fixer- jason mraz
8. walk of shame -p!nk
9. the truth about love-p!nk
10. keep holding on 

and my favorite ! 

Combined days

Day 8. A moment you felt most satisfied in your life {your happiest moment}
I have been racking my brain and I honestly do not have a one go to happiest moment, a couple i could think of were ruined shortly after so  they can't count and the rest well they are of the usual nothing that particularly stands out so when i think of something i will be sure to share .

Day 9. How you hope your future will be like.
Happy

Day 10. Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Absolutely not! i will tell you it was nothing special though and lacked the magic of it all.


ok so I am not particularly in a good writing mood I just had a horrible nightmare that has my chest clenched 2 hours later soooooooooo i bid you all goodnight , if you have tips on how to get over a nightmare do let me know ive never had one this bad it may not be that bad but i was friggin crying in it .... i dont cry!!!

Day 6

                      
                    Day 6:Write 30 interesting things about yourself {Things others may not know

1. I have only cut myself shaving 3 times.
2. I like walking barefoot or in socks.
3. prefer pencils to pens
4. more spiritual than actually religious
5. I find it difficult to write things about myself especially things that other people may not know because i am mostly an open book
6. I am only about 5'5 .But I make up for the rest with pretendy singing.
7. Love hats! although the post about Freddie the Fedora may have given that one away .
8. I used to be a cutter many many moons ago.
9. Have never done a tour of London .
10. My brain has a thing for accents .
11. I am not a "playa/man whore" and my naturally sweet disposition is actually not me flirting.
12. Me and heat are not good friends neither are me and humidity, in fact we are enemies.
13. I do take pride in my argumentative nature
14. Very seldom am I wrong .
15. My temper is very bad and at times scary , not in an oh god he is going to beat me up scary no no more of an he is too quiet what should i expect scary.
16. I have a good poker face apparently yet I have never played poker in my life .
17. Although I like killing everybody in my video games such as my notorious assassin strategy in the Hitman game which consists of killing every single person ! I am not even remotely violent in reality .
18. I am not an interesting person.
19. There is a possibility of 76% that I would be willing to have pizza in my daily diet , if it was not that unhealthy and causes you to take a round shape closer to the ground.
20. Believe it or not I am a shy person
21. Despite my previously discussed sweet kind disposition and at times way with words , I haven't a clue how to talk to women in a romantic sense .
22. I haven't really heard a new song in months and months and months, more fond of old jazzy music .
23. At times I prefer not to talk to people and actively avoid them.
24. I smile at strangers.
25. Did I mention I like hats? because I realllly like hats! and no they do not cover any baldness!
26. Anthropology is rather fascinating .
27. My heart has been bruised for over a year , or was it my ego ? no think it was my heart .Actually it was probably just my ego.
28. I almost always shed a tear when watching Dumbo and Bambi.
29. I do not possess the ability to scream, hopefully no dangerous situation which will require screaming makes itself available because I will fail .
30. I am EXTREMELY analytical and it at times ties in with my emotional malfunctionism, my spidey senses are not bad either .( doesnt help when i feel like ive screwed up because usually it means i did even if i didnt ! think i may have screwed up today somehow on this blog not sure how just yet though )

So maybe not that interesting but the truth is as number 20 suggests ,  I am not an interesting person who says interesting things or leads a terribly exciting life but at least I can take a joke !
right ?


31.I always keep my promises even if they do not make sense or end up hurting me , the only loop hole with that is many people forget that I always keep my promises and think they are void after communication seizes or something , but i actually still do keep 95% of my promises and try to keep the rest.



This post feels quite empty without any pictures don't you think ?

This picture was Lady G's suggestion after I pressured her in to suggesting a picture so if its girly ( like I think it is ) blame her :)

she was also kind enough to remind me of number 32, and give me this awesome picture she took her self!

32.I am a Feminist and proud .not in the traditional feminist way though , more the we are equal ok maybe i am a humanist ?

Day 7

                                     Day 7. Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.


Where is Day 6 you say ? well day 6 requires thinking and my brain function is currently low as it would not surprise me to find that  i only have half a brain and the space that the other half is supposed is actually filled with green goo and nasty bacteria right now. 

Soooo day 6 will  be posted later tonight or when i am in a better mood 

I am a very stubborn , somewhat intelligent (especially considering the presence of only half a brain ) passionate logical individual with a strong personality and  the potential to turn very very dark and evil .

Yes I am a Scorpio and Yes I mostly fit the criteria , the good parts anyway !


and here is a thought I am going to leave you with for now , somebody asked me why are people preferring online dating to actual dating nowadays ? 

my answer to that is why do people prefer sending emails to an actual letter now ?

I prefer hand writing letters...

Day 5

                            Day 5. A time you thought about ending your life. {Your worst moment}

I think one of those times was last year , I was influenced by blood related family to feel like a useless waste of breath and after years of negative carving in to my soul I was ready to just give up , although I had planned to do it in style and end it protecting others by volunteering in a war against a tyrant , however things did not work out that way and here I am still.

Day 4

Day 4. Your views on religion

ok so my views on religion will be posted in some pictures , and I am going to see if you can suss out what they are , do bare in mind that i am not an atheist and then ! i will discuss with you what you may think my views are !

( yes i am being lazy )

So this should give you a rough idea :)

Day 3

                                             Day 3- What are your views on drugs and alcohol.


I am not a fan of drugs, the presumption here that we are referring to narcotics and not pharmaceuticals although not a big fan of pharmaceuticals either unless absolutely necessary, not a fan of alcohol either , its ok to unwind but getting drunk everyday or every other day is in my personal opinion stupid and pointless, if there is something so horrible about your life that the only solution you see is to be constantly intoxicated to forget it my suggestion is fix it and sort out your troubles its healthier cheaper and better on the long run.

If you had a robot or if you were in one of these virtual reality game like thingies, you would build your character's body with the best and constantly try to upgrade , why is your real body any different ? alcohol in moderation can be healthy , drugs are never healthy they literally kill your cells which would be fine if they could all regenerate but not all of them can .


So my view is simple, do not ruin your body over temporary pleasure please. part of my dislike for alcohol may also stem from losing my dear uncle to it .

Day 2

                                                    Day 2. Where you’d like to be in 10 years

Hmmmm this is a tough one , ideally by then I would like to have achieved a postgraduate degree and actually started working hopefully making achievements as a genetic analysis of some sort , I think i would like to have if not finished started writing my awesome book that I intend to write although currently all i know is that it will be witty and funny but that is about it . Of course there is the usual transportation method be it a horse a jet an enlarged wolf car hybrid whatever is greener and more fun in ten years time ( i am not mentioning economically friendly because who knows maybe my book and genetics advances have made me rich!) a place of residence would be nice and a pet of course! I will absolutely have an alaskan malamute X Gsd by then and potentially another dog too .

Oh oh oh ! maybe i will have opened my school for gentlemen , no its not as bad as it sounds , see chivalry is taking its last gasps of breath and dying at the moment , we need to teach the males in our societies how to be men again real gentlemen with manners and consideration and kindness and plenty of other things! which is what this school will be for :D

So I guess what I am trying to say is that in 10 years time I would like to have just settled down , and about to see more of the world !

Who is coming to Fiji with me ?!

P.S:
Since I am attempting to eat healthier and exercise more as of now hopefully in ten years time I will also have a body to match this fantastic personality .

Day 1

Day 1. Your current Relationship, if single discuss how single life is.


Well truthfully my relationship status is I am in an imaginary relationship with a couple of women and! it isn't one sided! 
Right now my main imaginary relationship would have to be with the lovely Lana Parilla , and! in my imaginary relationship she is not even in character and does not posses magic go figure , and it is all going well !

When I am not enjoying my amazing Imaginary relationship with this wonderful wonderful woman , I am contently single because after my previous experience I am trying very very very hard to not settle for anybody less than what I deserve ( which is somebody made of pure undiluted awesomeness if you did not know ) see I think the last year I may have hit rock bottom in a sense chasing a lass even if it was the proper way and being patient for too long was not beneficial to my hearts emotional well being and then my last ex dumped me because I treated her with kindness upon confirmation of her cheating on me , such a horrible vile person I am to do that right ?

So currently content living the single life because lets face it , emotionally retarded people such as myself should stay single because imaginary relationships are so much better anyway !! ok seriously i am not being pessimistic or anything but there is nothing wrong with being emotionally unattached if you have not met someone that not only deserves your complete attention but actually wants it . In saying that there is somebody that I like however I choose not to chase.


soooooo does this fulfill the criteria of day 1? ill add if you want to know more !

new challenge stolen from well someone else!

Ok so I signed up for the A-Z Challenge again this year and decided to take a look at a coupla blogs and came across some really nice ones that I am now following and intend to read more of tomorrow whilst being sickly , one of them had this challenge stolen from another blogger/friend soooo I decided to start a theft chain and here we are , since April is over a month away and I currently need distraction from people because i am not liking them right now  , i find this perfect! what do you think ?

Day 1. Your current Relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 2. Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Day 3- What are your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 4. Your views on religion.
Day 5. A time you thought about ending your life. {Your worst moment}
Day 6. Write 30 interesting things about yourself {Things others may not know}
Day 7. Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 8. A moment you felt most satisfied in your life {your happiest moment}
Day 9. How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10. Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11. Put your iPod on shuffle and write down the 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12. Your dream college.
Day 13. Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14. Your earliest memory.
Day 15. Your favorite blogs
Day 16. Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17. Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18. Your beliefs.
Day 19. Disrespecting your parents.
Day 20. How important you think education is.
Day 21. One of your favorite shows.
Day 22. How have your changed in the past 2 years.
Day 23. Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous whom you find attractive.
Day 24. Your favorite movie & what it’s about.
Day 25. Someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26. What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27. A problem that you have had
Day 28. Something that you miss.
Day 29. Goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30. Your highs and lows of this month!

Awesome-ish!! day :D

I just absolutely love that horse !
Now I am going to tell you about my awesome day then rant ( hence the ish )

Today I went to my first ever Comic-Con !!! :D yes i finally did ! now I am not a comic fan in fact I have only read one comic book in my life , now don't get me wrong I am still a geek I love superheroes and all that but anyway!!

It was AWESOME!!! all those costumes all those people all those swords!!! yes we know I have a thing for swords ...... all the effort some people have put in to their costumes hell some where handmade and looked fantabulous ! AND!! one person was dressed like the Scottish Disney princess Merida from brave it was like the friggin copy out of the cartoon ! seriously fantastic even though we were severely under dressed since we kinda did not have any costumed on but I put my grouchy smurf shirt on , that counts right ?! :D

Did I mention that I have been running a fever  since I got back from work last night accompanied by man-flu symptoms of course , in case you did not know it has been scientifically proven that men are effected more by the wee flu bug ( and many other things ) sooo it is not all for dramatic effect!


And at last I seeeee the light , at last the fog is lifting ..... ok yeah I had to break in to song there for a second !

I am proud of myself for making myself go , I had fun and helped a friend out , I also think there is the possibility that a disaster was postponed rather than averted indefinitely by doing something i did not particularly want to do but it was for a good reason and some people are worth putting first :)

in saying that women seem to get weirder and weirder lately , ok women in my life to be more precise before i accidentally offend the entire population of English reading females of age , see the thing is after my latest attempts at romance which are all over 2-3 months old at least now I came to the conclusion that it doesn't matter how hard I try it will 85% of the time be taken the wrong way for whatever reason even if the reason does not relate to me 90% of the time ( there are no statistical basis for my statistics other than they feel right ! ) and so since then I decided no more second and third chances and no more chasing after a woman if a woman likes me enough she can tell me and we can go from there but I will not make the first move or utter the words , I will only show interest through behavior  but not say anything and to me that is fair enough , nothing wrong with a woman admitting she likes you and then she will literally get swooned and spoiled by me . Yet Somehow! I am still getting rejected when I am not even showing interest! once again I try to be the nice guy and ask a girl for coffee because i know she needs a chat and I once again automatically get ok but this isn't a date ! how does would you like to go to coffee = i wan't to take you out on a date? i thought dates were reserved for picnics dinners movies and if someone is special enough brunch!! not friggin coffee .

And that isn't even the only one! so can someone perhaps tell me what the problem that my mind isn't picking up or identifying ? seriously I am a catch , I have manners I can cook I mow the lawn take the garbage out change bed sheets work volunteer participate in logical witty imaginary conversations with real people  , what on earth am i doing wrong !!
So maybe I should make it clearer , I will not pursue any woman even if she is worth it if she wants me she has to say it , and if I made an attempt before and was rejected it won't happen now , if i didn't make an attempt and got rejected (even if i wasn't interested) and she has a change of heart it still isn't happening.There is nothing wrong with being a lone ranger , I would make an awesome lone ranger alternatively...
 I could apply to be the pope , I am very good at this celibacy thing :)

And now i am going to go pretendy sulk and fall asleep watching meet me at st. Louis 

Operation Elevate

There is a WONDERFUL person that I am honored not only to know but I am blessed to have her as a friend in my life, she goes by the name of the lovely Miss Lou Lou .

The Lovely Miss Lou Lou started something called Operation Elevate, the purpose/idea of this is to basically from my understanding elevate other people's spirits with positivity, where she got a lovely group of people ok some of them are not that delightful but anyway ! she has managed to get the majority to jot down a couple of nice positive words about each person on this list that she created , she asked us to forget the negative aspects ( yes I was not allowed to be mean even though I wanted to and it would have been funny ! but because its lou lou i had to respect her wishes) and focus on the positive in people , I found that many of the people I did not know that well but that inspired me to get to know them and find some positive things about them .

Do you see the inspiration that this amazing soul has accomplished ?and she has also worked so hard on formatting the lists so that each person has their own version of what nice things people said about them ready for valentines day .
I think that as of next year people should start taking Operation Elevate to their work place , within their families , circles of friends, the neighborhood/village/church and share the positivity share the love ! all thanks to miss lou lou I know I will be implementing and participating again.

and so here is my Participation for Lou

Louella you bring undeniable Joy to my life , your chuckles and giggles and snorkles give me faith and make me smile from deep within, your whole attitude towards life and the way you think the way you interact with others your passion your everything gives me faith in man kind , it gives me hope that there are still good people around and evolution has not failed at all , You Lou make me want to work harder and be a better person because you are living proof that there are still people that appreciate the small things.
if I said I love you it would not be accurate because it does not begin to cover it ! I adore you I look up to you and you have always been not only an inspiration but a role model to me .
Words fail me if I try to describe you or write something nice about you so I will leave it at just like twinks you are family to me I will always love you care for you and be annoyingly protective of you :)

Happy Valentines day Lou Lou , you made all of ours special I hope I can try to make yours even a fraction as good as you made mine , yes that means I will sing for you if you request it :p

The Pancake Valentine Rule

                                                          Pancake DAY!!!


As we all know today the 12.02.2013 happens to be PANCAKE DAY!!! yes you read it right PANCAKE DAY!!! is my enthusiasm getting to you ? are you chanting pancake pancake!pancake! pancake! as you put your aprons on and march head on to the kitchen to mix that batter? no? well GO FRIGGIN DO IT! then come back and read the remainder of this blog of course as it contains vital information about the new pancake valentine rule :D

( It is only appropriate to have a pancake song in a pancake blog entry)

So as we have established , today is pancake day , I literally had nothing other than one glass of water at 9:20 am till i got home and started on my pancakes at about 8 pm , that is how dedicated I am to the cause , I bought Nutella and peanut butter I had the batter ready and the butter ready and was feeling rather creative after a conversation with the lovely G yesterday so I pulled out the Chocolate Chips! oh yes I did !
although we came to the conclusion that her pancakes and mine are different that being due to the fact that american pancakes much like many other american things ( no offence intended I say this with utter admiration when it comes to food! ) are fat and fluffy in comparison with the crepe like things we have here although ours are equally delicious ....

Despite my best efforts like every time I make pancakes they come out tasty and malformed even though the chocolate chips did help they were still panblobs rather than pancakes but here is a picture of a semi presentable cheese pancake I managed to make the last pancake for the day and potentially for pancake days ever after !

Not too shabby considering it was the best one , and I ate it! even though it well was kinda still not cooked in the middle but that is ok !

So let us get to the second point on this agenda i mean post!!

The Pancake Valentine Rule

As you can see there is only one day separating both pancakes day and valentines day and normally they are not too far from each other anyway , I have witnessed that many women have been whinging and whining about not having a valentine this year how they are going to be single for valentines day how one resorted to having a married person for their valentine because nobody else asked them out boobloodyhoo!

So I have instated a rule that can fix this problem and is nicer than what I would initially do ( which is tell the person to get a bloody grip you don't need a particular calendar day to express emotions get a gift and eat chocolate .... you have your birthday and birthday rehearsals ! ) . Now I am not saying all single women /men do this but this applies to the ones that do and the fun ones that don't .

So the rule is if you find yourself struggling to get a valentines date and there is someone you like that you are on good terms with that you would ideally want to spend v day with , you present them with pancakes on pancake day , this can be a surprise or you can make a day out of it up to you and your capabilities , and that automatically means that said person IF single ( this means don't present someone attached with pancakes because it voids the rule's terms and conditions ) will be your valentines as indicated by this rule .

if the person does not appreciate this gesture then they can be shot for disliking pancakes unless they are gluten intolerant .
if they throw a hissy fit then they are somebody you really don't want in your life
if they stand you up they can be shot
if they show up without chocolate they can be shot
if they do not make an effort they can be bricked
there are many other terms and conditions that we will not delve in to since you have a few more hours to go get yourself a valentine!

if you change your mind then you will suffer the wrath of the pancake


And if you are lucky enough to receive pancakes on this glorious day!
Then you have found yourself a keeper.

Ever get the urge to just leave , walk out , sail away far far away from everything , escape may be the word i am looking for , that is what I feel like today , suffocated is what I felt like last week with the sensation tightening more each day and today I realized I am the scapegoat regardless of logic regardless of actions I am the scapegoat no matter how I may try to fight it or combat it nothing changes nothing will change it is literally like trying to fill a bucket that holes in it , except maybe i am the bucket with gun shot holes perhaps I should stop trying to fill the bucket to help every one else and focus on filling my holes instead?

ok that sounded wrong! but you know what I mean , so I want to take my Darls and sail away , I want to say I'm done to soooo many people grab some basics supplies probably a survival at sea guide and perhaps a fishing for dummies book, and just sail away maybe find an island away from modern day idiots and just battle my demons , build myself up maybe even build a tree house that would be soooo awesome! although that may mean i would not want to go back to mainland .

Do you ever want to just sail away in to the unknown because it seems probably friendlier than the daily crap you have to endure?

This too shall pass.

I have had an interesting couple of days , soooooo I failed the test for the job I was applying for and I am quite certain that it is a conspiracy! because my math is not that bad and the questions were stupid but anyway! maybe next year , Yesterday as soon as we started the Anthropology lecture the professor looked at me pointed and said You! stay behind I want to talk to you , of course that induces an oh shit reaction instantaneously....luckily I still managed to pay attention or at least i remember Estonian statues being showed and a comparison between tanner and Sinclair evolution books or may be it was development i'm not sure,

Turns out he just thought I would be great for a postgraduate course in Evolutionary Medicine which I am not sure if it should be taken as an insult or compliment , I am an evil scientist damnit! or hope to be someday perhaps soonish hopefully it will make blackmailing easier and the bank account happier don't you think.

So then I went back in to work and guess what i did ! YES! I carried dead bodies around muahahaha

ok maybe it sounded a bit more dramatic and enthusiastic than it was , they were only dead pretty birds that were hacked in to for scientific purposes prior to that they were shot , prior to that well they were alive pheasants so I personally can not imagine them having that much of a fulfilled life anyway considering the suicidal tendencies or the desire to attack a moving car's wind shield if you will.

So the day turned out a bit better than I had expected alas my dark hole sucked me back in to it within hours and i did not want to leave the house but i did! I had a birthday to go to with no idea what to get my friend , girls are hard to shop for but guys are even harder to shop for ! so after much thought I decided that for his birthday present he is getting an Easter egg :D which is precisely what happened and he loved it! although does this mean i should get a birthday present during Easter? I am glad I went out even though I smoked which I probably shouldn't have but all in all a good time with awesome people.

I am certain I was going to mention something else but forgot what it was so perhaps tomorrow you will get to hear about it .

oh and its almost pancake day!!!

2013 so far...

I think it has been quite an interesting year so far with a variety of both positive and negative aspects or shall we just call them neutral? meh no that is boring!

So far I have managed to behave myself and not scream out obscenities at every single person i know that deserves it , but on the bright side the number of such individuals has diminished significantly courtesy of new years resolutions ! ok so maybe I didn't actually make any resolutions other than " Be Brave" but I am not doing a bad job at making them as I go along one of them is to demolish lousy/boring/negative/questionable/plain people from my life sadly demolishing people is illegal and so I have somewhat settled for simply ignoring them and not talking to them as much as possible , now that is known as damage control which is not nearly enough soooooo I am hanging out with some pretty awesome new people , how do i know they are awesome you say?
well that is simple if you manage to get yourself in to a conversation with someone where any people listening to it would think you are mental and starts slowly calmly walking away , AND! they do not scare you or you may be 10% crazier ( at least in your mind ) then you have landed yourself an awesome friend potentially , if said conversations continue to occur and induce laughter and you do not bore from each other even if you spend prolonged hours doing tedious activities ( such as lectures) together then you have found yourself a friend or possibly even a partner in crime .


There may be a slight possibility that so far this year my tendencies towards evil have increased and it may not be the best idea but totally awesome that I also currently work in a Lab oh the possibilities!

Now we all know my blogging resolution didn't go down too well but maybe ill manage to turn that around? its not like I have essays and dissertations to write or anything ..... Bazinga! no but seriously I feel like I need to write more or more often perhaps, I have managed to only fall down twice in the snow this year which is a significant improvement! one was in the forest which was absolutely beautiful although finding a pair of boxers hanging in a tree in the middle of the forest isn't exactly comforting the fact that they were not covered in blood or ripped means that the previous owner probably just wanted to try to keep a part of the tree branch warm rather than he/she was eaten by a squirrel or a bear with superb table manners.

oh oh oh I got myself disowned by my family! for insisting to be myself, and within days got a marriage proposal which was very sweet sadly the wrong sex/gender ( shush Tani!!!I don't want to hear about it )and loads of other nice things from people that are now pretty much real family .

Spent a couple of random days completely relaxed , and my body found that a weird experience which of course raises some alarm bells , how could I of let my self get sooooo stressed to the point of not recognizing the sensation of relaxation if not joy?!? so perhaps more of that is in order , more positivity   more chocolate cake more niceness and more recognition of self worth !

I have had a roller coaster of  a year so far but somehow I have this feeling that it is all going to be just fine even though I am broke stressed with a huge battle ahead , I feel somewhat great and I am quite excited for this years Alphabet challenge !! I intend to be creative!

and now I shall shush since there is the remote possibility that you are all snoring and drooling on your keyboards :D

Be well and remember ( yes this is stolen from someone else)

Change your words, Change your World.


p.s:

I am getting to talk a tiny bit more to the wonderful miss Sandra and the wonderful miss Lou Lou and I absolutely LOVE IT!!.