Thursday, 7 May 2015


I feel so bad finishing a week after everyone else ! it has been partially due to technical difficulties as for some unknown reason the site didn't work, and ive been manfluing for the last 10 days, and working ( im on antibiotics im not infecting everyone left right and center !).

Z I couldn't think of something other than Zebra for this , or how Z is the last letter of the alphabet and so signifies endings which signifies new beginnings.

I have recently had a friendship pretty much end , a best friendship , for reasons very unknown to me , it was a drop of the face of the planet , refuse to talk to me kind of ending which is sad. This person's nick name was actually Z .

Sometimes things need to be brought to an end , or cut loose, to make space for new beginnings , which is what makes some things bitter sweet.Sometimes it just provides the opportunity for whatever is ending to evolve in to something even better and so you start a new with something different, you know think butterfly just in relationship form. And sometimes we just have to move on from things and accept that life is change , and some changes hurt more than others but that's ok , nobody grew or evolved from sugar coating , width does not count !

So here is to Z ! may your new marriage be a blessed one and may it bring you happiness.

and here is to the letter Z in general! may all your endings come accompanied with sweeter new beginnings.

Have a lovely day people

Wednesday, 29 April 2015


You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
You can't look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face 
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well
Hope it gives you hell

Tuesday, 28 April 2015


I admit , i have no word for x !


W is for worth/worthiness

Only the Worthy can lift Thor's hammer, I suggest that if and when you see the Avengers sequal, enjoy Thor's facial expressions !

I am trying to not give out spoilers here, though it is sooo hard, because it is soooo AWESOME!

what or who decides what is worthy or what someone is worth? I know from recent experience that it does not take much to make one feel like they are worth nothing, that they are unworthy of basic things. Though that is entirely not true, there is nobody on this planet that does not have worth.

You are the only one that can decide and dictate what it is you are worth or if you are worthy of something/someone/someone's hammer , and that is done through your actions and believing in yourself, nobody can decide that for you , yes they can make you feel bad but that is usually only because they feel bad about themselves and this is the only way they know how to feel better.

the beautiful balanced combination of empathy emotion and logic is what creates worthiness in my mind, or so i have learnt through observation and marvel .

You are worthy, just a dig a little deeper and you can see it too :)


many nice words that can evolve in to prolonged posts that start with V , such as value and vitality and vulnerability and virtue , yes virtue is something we are lacking , i seem to be able to talk more about negative things or well rant! than i can elaborate on positives lately, that is something i will have to venture in to fixing .

but one word currently comes to mind when i think of the letter V , ok i lie 2 words, because a second word just came to mind just as i was typing that !

V is for Veranda , a real veranda not a bloody patio that a pseudo intellectual will refer to as a veranda.
I am talking about beautiful old Italian/european verandas , in all their sizes that vary from gigantic , to teeny weeny !

I grew up with verandas,ours was long and made of marble and bricks,I spent many nights just staring at the street,people walking, the hustle and bustle of everyday city life, or just the stars at night.Many heart to hearts occurred on that veranda, it is where we went when my brother felt like opening up and talking, may he rest in peace.

it was a happy place, the war changed that of course as the amount of bullets you would find that have landed there rendered it unsafe, also the family moved to another place.
it was on a veranda that i also had my first taste of alcohol , i thought it was apple juice ... but it tasted good, i dislike most alcohol nowadays it was still a good memory though.

Veranda's will always hold a special place in my heart, wither i choose to admit it or not.

Also V is for violin, i like violins, maybe i will try to learn to play it in the future.


One of these years I will actually complete all my posts on time!

U is a very tricky letter, it is one of those letters that i cant find a word for at the tip of my tongue or mind , apart from the word umbrella, I don't like umbrellas unless absolutely necessary , because they always break, i have not had a single umbrella that did not break on me. In fact the last umbrella i bought, broke the firs time i used it !

but when i dug deeper in my brain, with the aid of google of course, i found that the list of positive words that start with U , is still very small !

U is for unconditional, I am unfortunately the kind of Unique person that takes that word quit literally, or fortunately ?

Unconditional/unlimited is a word that is self explanatory , in my mind anyway , it means no strings or conditions are attached, none what so ever. Yet it seems that hardly anyone ever means it when they say the word, wither it being to advertise broadband, on your mobile phone contract, where unlimited actually means only 3000 , or with love, there are always conditions no matter what.

on am ore positive note ! U is for unbreakable ! yes I am referring to the Kimmy Schmidt show , which if you have not seen GO SEE IT ! it is wonderful ! be a unicorn!
I know that being unbreakable is not as easy or as simple as it sounds, it requires an enormous amount of inbuilt resilience, though it is not impossible. Unbreakable does not mean bullet proof,it does not mean completely unbreakable, i like to think of it more like you get fractures instead of full breaks , and of course you try to heal faster.

So U is for being an unbreakable unique unicorn ! It may not make literal sense, but I think you know exactly what I mean :)

Friday, 24 April 2015


The truth  the whole truth and nothing but the truth...

The truth is you make some choices, but some choices make you.

There are always 3 versions of the truth, it is such an objective thing that can turn messy and tainted when viewed through the lens of emotions and feelings.

The truth is that I don't really know what to write about because T right now to me is for time and terror .

t is also for Tea !

sweet tea! or tea with milk, or earl grey ? or peppermint ! my favourite is either sweet tea or moroccan green tea with fresh mint and almonds, that is absolutely gorgeous.

it is coming up to ice tea season soon :)