Lil Rant

What the fuck is wrong with people! So a guy was interested in Sophie who is for sale at well a very cheap price for a pure bred Labrador here because I want her to go to a good home rather than financial gain and he wants to pay 200l.e for her instead of the $250 which is the advertised price here they usually sell for $500 and more now the currency conversion puts the price he wants to pay at $33 , who the hell in their right mind  tries to haggle the price of a pure bred dog regardless of breed that much? of course i could not keep my mouth shut  because i had seen him try to bring the price down to 200-300l.e on every dog advertised on the website in addition to questioning the breed of each which lead me to tell him that if you can not afford the price of a dog especially since it is discounted how exactly are you going to afford to take care of one? also if that is the most you are willing to pay and you do not want to adopt that means you are either buying it to sell it to someone else at a ridiculous price immediately or you are going to be bored of it within a month because dogs especially puppies need A LOT! of taking care of ... which made him resort to being rude , if you cannot be civil with a human being I can not even imagine how you would treat a little puppy..

So another woman was interested in her today and actually came to see her but insisted on meeting at a mutual point and not come see Sophie in her natural habitat as I refer to it which was stupid in my opinion to get a proper feel of a dog or cat see it where it lives how it interacts in the environment it lives in and how it is with its siblings if available not when it is in a new environment and scared, after inspecting the lil pup in her car she kept hinting that she was not a pure bred despite me explaining that the shape of the ears and the webbed paw are clear indications that she is a labrador , and that she was sooooo small , of course she is friggin small she is the runt!( no not all runts are small i know that ) but as long as it is healthy it doesn't matter thing is I informed her all this before she came and she still wanted to think about it,  so it ended up as this woman interrupted my lunch probably scared Sophie because she was not used to that little trip and got me made fun of and laughed at because apparently a guy walking down the street cradling a little pup is so so hilarious ( not that I cared ).

Which brings me back to What in god's name is wrong with these people, I'd sooner get the shelter to find them someone to adopt them than sell either of them to people like this.

Rant Over

Challenge Accepted

Tomorrow is Sunday which means the challenge begins and of course my brain is all " Seriously?! you couldn't think of a better thing to do with your time other than show how bad your grammar is and how you are bad at following rules which in this case is writing brief wee blogs, and put me on the spot! you know know my creativity jumps out of your ears when  you pressure me like that!"  so there is a slight possibility that after reading so many Amazing!( to say the least ) blogs in the last few days and comparing how whiny my documentation of my current experience is .... that there is the possibility of feeling a wee bit inadequate but no bother! the point is to meet new people and of course the main reason is as follows...


a couple of weeks ago I finished reading Danny Wallace's book " Yes man" which I initially thought was the same as the movie but would be a bit more awesome, turns out it was the same concept but the story was entirely different and of course there was some pride at the fact that it was British, anyway in my attempts to find some less negative aspects in my situation it was decided that there is no reason why I could not be a Yes Man too..... and so " YES" will  be the correct answer for any opportunity that comes my way within reason of course ( I am not going to swim home if asked to for example or walk to Russia or dye my  hair pink wearing pink boxers is still being debated however although i am against it still) .

Now the only problem was my father arrived shortly after that decision was made and he has injured his knee so I have been pretty much a care taker for a dad and a couple of crazy puppies, along side the previous isolation it limited the opportunity for opportunities so apart from my therapist saying i should try something new like trying to be the opposite of who i am which i do not know if it is considered an opportunity or not I said yes to it none the less just in case ( never know how the rules of karma are working nowadays ) and of course tried but failed so it has to count! apart from that this A-Z challenge is the first thing that resembled an opportunity that has come my way ( ok that is not entirely true i can't say resembled when the precise line was "This is a great opportunity to discipline yourself, grow as a blogger, and make new friends – come join us! ") and of course being a Yes Man aside, the word challenge automatically communicates with the stubborn part of my brain ( which constitutes roughly 68% of it ) resulting in Challenge Accepted....

of course the lovely Lou Lou accepted the challenge today too which is going to make the experience much more fun! I think I read somewhere in the rules that were only skimmed through (SORRY! short attention span her ) that a theme should be chosen so to save myself thinking the theme is whatever pops in my head which is pretty much saying my theme is randomness right?


The point is to have fun have a laugh if not meet new people  I know it will at least make a couple of people that read my gibberish chuckle :D

Good day and good luck!

p.s: I am feeling a wee bit cheeky thus more people need to be challenged.

It is a common fact that I am not enjoying what I perceive as serving time in hell here in Egypt as the fun of the country depends on the situation and mine sucks the fun right out of it,however sometimes you meet people that can be quite sweet yesterday I was standing in the middle of the road hands full of shopping looking for a taxi on a Thursday night which is equivalent to a Friday night elsewhere since Friday is the weekend here and each taxi that stopped refused to take me because in their opinion my house was too near which in a way it is its only a couple of miles and 8l.e away and of course I stubbornly refuse to take the taxi's lined up in front of the mall because they charge more than double the price and that is wrong......

So anyway standing there waiting till finally one guy hesitates then decides sure i should jump in, turns out i reminded him of his son and that is why he decided to take me because he was looking for a long journey initially, he then started interrogating me about where i'm from apparently the accent is too obvious but i talk nice Egyptian anyhow the guy was really nice and not obnoxious like the usual drivers kept advising me not to get married and wait for the right lass then insisted that i do not pay which I insisted against, it was a nice surprise to have a pleasant conversation with a nice enough person as oppose to arguing for a change .

on another note I have been bad and neglecting the stray dogs since i fostered the puppies, see they used to always sleep in front of the building and play all sorts of melodies throughout the night keeping me up, so we had formed that bond where they keep me up and i anonymously leave them food which I wanted to get back to doing but noticed that they seem to have disappeared from the area which is worrisome so I might go looking for them soon just to make sure they are ok , stray dogs here are beautiful they don't all look like mutts they seem sweet and are very smart if it were up to me i would have adopted all of them!

I have also decided to brush up on my penmanship skills and start writing letters although I have no means of sending them through snail mail taking a picture and emailing it is temporarily just as good.

Yesterday was not particularly a nice day my therapist telling me she likes me and she will miss me during the weekend between arguing did not help and struck me not particularly professional but she at least acknowledged that my stubbornness is impossible to change. Remembering that fact and running into a couple of awesome blogs yesterday which were 100 days of bliss, 366 random acts of kindness oh and an A-Z challenge kinda blog which was awesome, and was reminded that things could be far worse in addition to the fact that I just survived war a dirty dirty badly planned barely any strategy planned war!

so in conclusion to that paragraph... what the fuck was I thinking giving up, I have never allowed anyone to bring me down like that there is no reason to start now also my writing has been too depressing and whiny thus one needs to change!

here is to change! in writing style and adding more positive thinking to my day also possibly try to find more inspiring things, maybe try to extent my patience a wee bit more too ?

I am finding the more i am accused of being emotionless or feeling-less, the more i realize that i should continue telling the people that i care about exactly how i feel and so trying to do that more often and due to that I am rather inclined to say Thank you to Marie for being a magnificent friend and threatening to kick my arse should i ever change.

This A-Z challenge seems well challenging but fun! basically you are to write every day other than Sundays throughout the month of April which brings it to 26 days which is yes you guessed it! the number of letters in the alphabet, there are more rules I think but i erm forgot to read them all?

so that is what I am trying as of well Monday i suppose ! hmmm also tempted to challenge a couple of friends to do this, what say you?

"There is a reason i would be happy alone not because i thought i would be happy alone it was because i thought if i loved someone and then it fell apart i might not make it,  it is easier to be a lone because what if you learn that you need love and then you dont have it, what if you like it and lean on it , what if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart can you even survive that kind of pain, losing love is like organ damage it is like dying the only difference is death ends, this it could go on forever"

This is from Grey's anatomy and it could not be more true, it not only hits the nerve it corners it and says Tag! you're it.

Failure

Yesterday went pretty fast it was just me my dad and the dogs pretty relaxed laid back day the sad thing about it was that there was nothing good on tv other than Hitch, which is not a bad movie apart from the fact that it reminds me of my failure, I can give almost anyone absolutely sound successful dating advice but when it comes to the woman I care for everything I know about women not only jumps out of the window it bloody takes a jet that travels at the speed of light! which of course is not useful I have feelings for a woman and I am failing at winning her trust or even having a conversation for more than a minute actually too as of late.

no normally this is all fine I am patient especially knowing she is worth it  but now it is bothering me because maybe i did or said something wrong without knowing?

Things today are not going as smoothly, think it started yesterday late evening when I felt something was off something wasn't right or maybe it was something was bothered and I did not determine who it is, the feeling wore of slightly but came back today I ignored it played cards with my dad played with the pups put ads for them to be sold and got called by an idiot asking me about them then telling me has 2 puppies he wants to sell , well why in God's name are you calling me then! idiot.

anyway I decided might as well have a heart to heart with my dad as it is pointless paying this much in therapy when it isn't working and try to figure out an alternative arrangement since I do not feel broke and I am certain his motives for chucking me to a therapist are social and to keep appearances I mean it is sooooo shameful to have your brilliant son go live elsewhere and say to hell with the family and that country? because it is so wrong to just want a normal life and not go in to politics or big business's , of course last month the agreement was if i keep trying and it doesn't work i get to go home and we will work something out, today the conversation went more like we either find middle ground or i will not be in your life anymore, perhaps it was a mistake telling him that I am fully willing the high price that comes with leaving which could go as far as being homeless and not finishing my degree but not willing to lose him, because it feels like that is being used against me.


ok maybe its not as much failure as it is heart break and disappointment in so called " family" and how quickly one's mind is changed when something does not suit their needs.
So today I feel broken I feel like giving up and relocating to a residence under a rock at the bottom of the ocean possibly under the titanic, because nothing I do is good enough I can't get the dad I can't get the girl and I can't get anything done .

Thus I shall embrace my failure, can't even bloody drink because I can't get drunk! suppose it serves me right for being honest and caring.

Sappyness

"Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great."
-Comte DeBussy-Rabutin


"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything."


"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection, and not a fountain; to show them we love them not when we feel like it, but when they do."
-Nan Fairbrother